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CHAPTER XXIX.

I WATCH THE PYRENEES SINK IN THE SEA, THEN SAIL O'ER GREEN NEPTUNE'S

BACK.

It was 11 o'clock when we started. The streets were thronged, and the

throngs moving in one direction. That was to the street lined on both

sides with churches, whose doors were flung wide open to the surging

masses. We went with the current and entered a famous church which was

crowded with the pious, their souls rapt in their devotion. Like all

European churches, there were no seats, but the audience, closely

packed, knelt or stood. We joined the worshipers, but looked around with

curious eyes. When the prayers were ended the street was one living mass

of people, all moving toward the outskirts of the town. We went with the

tide, and with the tide entered the arena, where a bull fight was

on--curious transition from church to arena. It was a great sight--I

mean that of seeing the people--there were 15,000 present in that

amphitheatre. It looked just like the old Roman arena, and to us was in

all its details intensely interesting.

On Monday we visited the picture galleries and museums, and on Tuesday

we got our baggage down to the depot once more, and purchasing our

tickets we were off for Santander. I was too anxious to enjoy the

scenery. We were a day and a night on the journey, and arriving on

Wednesday I still had before me three days of anxiety.

Being thoroughly sick of Spain, I longed to be on blue water with our

good ship's prow pointed to the Western World. Then I felt I could begin

to enjoy life. I had a charming wife--delightful companion--and once up

anchor all my haunting fears would die, and life's pleasures would be

mine to the full. But there in Santander the time dragged wearily. To be

sure, I had the English papers, but they were nearly a week on the way,

and a bad conscience finds many a cause for fear. I was aching to be

aboard. Saturday came at last, and going early down to the headland at

the harbor's mouth, with my field glass I anxiously scanned the Bay of

Biscay to see if I could discern anywhere on the horizon the smoke of

the approaching steamer. Lingering there until the dinner hour, I

hastened to the hotel.

My wife was merry and happy. I was glad to see her so, and found it

difficult to conceal my solicitude. Going both together to the headland

we spent most of the afternoon there. Night and then midnight came, and

no steamer's lights flashed in the dark waters of the bay. Heartsick and

anxious I went to bed, half resolved to take my wife into my confidence,

tell her in some measure the truth, and point out to her the necessity

of my taking flight, leaving her to follow at her leisure. It would have

been a terrible shock to her, but I began to fear that the truth would

come to her ears some time.

Early the next morning my servant awoke me, asking me to look out of the

window. I ran to it, and looking out, there in the bay, just in front of

the hotel, lay a steamer of the largest size and magnificent in her

beauty. It was a happy sight for me.

Nunn hired a boat for our luggage and a second for me, and then, after a

hurried breakfast, we boarded the steamer, Nunn following with the

baggage. Among other things I had a favorite dressing case, and had

given the servant strict orders to keep it under his eye, but as soon as

he came aboard he inquired in great agitation if I had brought it off

with me. Upon my saying no he was quite overcome, at the same time

explaining that he had laid it on top of the baggage in front of the

hotel, and some one had stolen it. While he was speaking a passenger

came walking by with the identical case in his hand. Nunn flew at the

man and seized both him and the bag, and sure enough he had the thief,

but I ordered him to let the man go, and he went away shamefaced enough.

He little thought when stealing the bag that the owner was going on the

same steamer. At last we were afloat, and now I was all eagerness to

hear the steam monkey start to bring the anchor a-peak. It is simply

amazing how a bad conscience "moldeth goblins swift as frenzy's

thought." Even as I stood there I was not at rest, but was impatient and

suspicious of every movement from the shore. As the long day dragged

slowly on and 4 o'clock came, preparations for getting under way were

going rapidly forward. I took my field glasses, stationed myself on the

after deck and anxiously scrutinized every boat leaving the shore.

Suddenly a boat started out from the head of the bay, pulled steadily by

eight rowers, and my conscience told me it meant danger, but the boatmen

pulled down along the shore, then suddenly stopped, and I could see that

they were passing a bottle around, taking a drink. Soon I discovered a

heap on the stern, which on closer inspection proved to be nets, and my

fears boiled down showed me they were simply fishermen and I an ass and

somewhat ashamed of myself. I felt I had really no cause for fear, even

had the steamer remained in harbor for a week. Just then, with a mighty

throb, the screw gave a turn, and it was music to my ears. Then the

waters of the bay were churned into yeasty waves. The city and shores

seemed to glide by and our prow was pointed direct to the blue sea

rolling beyond. Soon the joyous billows were toying with our ship, and

huge as it was were tossing it as lightly and easily as a child a toy.

But, still ill at ease, I walked the deck restless and unhappy.

I no longer feared arrest, was confident that never would hand of human

justice be laid on me, but I dimly felt that there was a divine justice

which would exact retribution. I felt that if there was mind behind this

frame of matter we see, then He who made the natural law and decreed a

penalty for every infraction must have made an infallible decree for

every violation against the moral law. If so, where could we poor

insects go or hide, or how scheme or dodge to escape the divine

vengeance?

But as I stood on the deck that night and watched the mountains sink

into the sea I felt this all dimly, and tried to shake off the feeling.

I stood fascinated, with many conflicting emotions sweeping through my

mind, sadly watching the receding shores of Spain, and just as the

highest mountains were sinking in the sea my servant appearing at my

side informed me that dinner was ready and my wife waiting. Sending him

away and turning my face to the land, I strained my eyes through the

gathering gloom to discern the distant shore. Then with a bitter feeling

in my heart I set out for the saloon, but stopped and quoting these

lines--

"The day of my destiny is over,

And the star of my fate hath declined"

--went below.

Soon, under the warming influence of wine, forgetting all my forebodings

and looking into my wife's face beaming with love and content, I could

not refrain from saying to myself: I am a fool to doubt that happiness

is mine. Am I not Fortune's favorite? With love, youth, enthusiasm,

health and wealth on my side, what else save happy days and nights and

long years filled with content can be mine?

So, shaking off my forebodings, the eighteen days of our voyage over

green Neptune's back were ideal, and we became objects of envy to all

the passengers.

Our ship was the Martinique, with French officers and crew, and a fine,

manly lot of men they were. The passengers were mostly colonial people

returning home to the French colonies in the West Indies. They were

nice, refined people, but we were rather reserved and kept to ourselves.

One of the passengers had a dozen Spanish fighting cocks, and they

afforded us much amusement. There were frequent mains on the after deck

and sometimes on the dinner table. These were very popular, particularly

with the ladies, who were continually asking to have the cocks brought

on after dessert. A space would be made in the centre of the table and

two cocks placed on it. How they loved fighting! They certainly enjoyed

it far better than the spectators. There were four long tables, all

crowded, but when the main was started the other tables were deserted

and the passengers packed around ours.

Our opposite neighbors were two Sisters of Charity who were on their way

to the City of Mexico to fill a gap that death had made in the ranks of

their order there. They were simple, sainted souls and had never known

any life other than the religious, and never emerged from the cloister

save only to do deeds of mercy in the country town outside. They had

been selected by lot to go to Mexico. We were favored to become fast

friends of theirs, and I was glad to have them accept such attentions as

we could give. It was delightful to meet such simple, unsophisticated

people under circumstances when, they being travelers, the rules of the

Church permitted them to throw off their reserve, to associate with

strangers and to live--so far as food and drink were concerned--like the

people they were associated with for the time.

My wife and I grew to like them well, and I was never tired of getting

their views of men and things. Truly their lives were a thing apart from

the world and the ways of men. They told me with a kind of rapture that

the average life of one of their order in Mexico was only five years,

and they thought heaven had been very gracious in selecting them, that

they might give their lives to the Church and so become members of the

mighty army of martyrs who were honored in heaven by looking upon the

face of the Virgin and her Son and serving them.

They knew nothing of wines and did not suspect the costliness of those

which during the entire voyage they drank at my expense.

The dinners were rather formal affairs and occupied an hour and a half,

and between the good sisters and us two we always finished a bottle of

claret and two of champagne, and about a like quantity between dinner

and bedtime. I don't believe that up to the hour they left the world

they ever quite understood why they were so happy and merry on that

voyage.

We used to visit the steerage forward nearly every day. There was an

unmistakable lady so unfortunate as to be a passenger there. She

appreciated our visits, and eventually confided the story of her life to

my wife, and what a story it was of woman's love and man's perfidy!

I had an electric battery which I frequently took into the steerage to

astonish the natives. When I first put a silver piece in a basin of

water and told them the man taking it out could keep it, what a rush

there was! There was one would-be clever clown who was perfectly willing

to test the power of the battery, but was so clever he never would take

hold of both handles at once. He dodged around for two or three days

greatly pleased with his sharpness, but I determined to have him some

day and have him hard when I got him. So one morning when dancing about

as usual he happened to be barefooted. Apparently by accident, I upset

the basin of water over the deck, making it a good conductor, then

accepting his offer to try the machine by holding one handle, I dropped

the other on the wet deck and gave him the benefit of the whole power

of the battery. He let one terrific yell, then stood rooted to the deck

speechless for a moment; then gave vent to a series of whoops that would

have made the fortune of a Comanche Indian. When freed from the current

the clever fellow made a break for the steerage and never appeared again

at any of my electric seances. All those ignorants insisted that my

battery was surely el diablo.

After eighteen days we cast anchor in St. Thomas harbor, and pleasant as

our voyage had been we were glad to see land. We were to stop a day for

coaling.

Taking the two sisters, we went ashore in one of the many boats

surrounding the ship, all manned by scantily robed black fellows. The

town, with its hordes of gaudily dressed and noisy blacks, was most

interesting. I had hired the boat for the day, so the three black

fellows accompanied us around the town. Each wore a stovepipe hat. The

remainder of their furniture consisted of cotton shirt and trousers. The

men were barefooted, of course.

My wife was the typical blue-eyed, golden-haired Englishwoman, and was

the observed of all observers in that black mob. I myself was all in

white, from canvas shoes to white umbrella. So, between the two sisters

in their black robes and white bonnets and our attending boatmen, along

with a mob of half-naked black boys that followed, we formed quite a

circus and created a commotion in the town.

First I took the sisters to the cathedral. Both were grateful and knelt

at the altar for a full half hour while we waited. Then after visiting

several stores to make some small purchases, we went to a circus showing

there that week. I bought ten tickets for my party. Everything they saw

in the town was marvelous and strange to them. When we entered the

circus tent the sisters were perplexed and thought it must be a new sort

of church. But words would fail to express their amazement when they saw

the clown and bespangled horseman enter the ring and the performance

begin. They were in a new and hitherto undreamed-of world, and gazed in

childlike wonderment on the scene, and, like children, only saw the

glitter of the spangles and thought both men and women performers were

angels of beauty. Even after the thing was over the magic and witchery

of it all rested on them. Their hearts were deeply stirred and their

thoughts were with the performers. To please them we sat until the

audience had dispersed, and, when going out, one of them, speaking of

the performers, told my wife they must be "very near to God."

Then we went to the hotel. I dispersed my cortege and ordered a room for

ourselves and one for the sisters, and we all took a nap until evening.

Then we had some negro singing and dancing for our amusement in the

courtyard of the hotel, and at 9 o'clock we went out for a moonlight

walk under the tropical sky. About 10 we found we had had enough of it

and were glad to betake ourselves to bed.

We all breakfasted together in the courtyard the next morning and soon

after went aboard. At noon up came the anchor and we were off for

Havana, our next stopping place, twenty-four hours' sail away. The

steamer after one day's detention to take in cargo would continue her

voyage to Vera Cruz. It was my intention to go on to that port, and from

there across the country to the capital, the City of Mexico. There was

no cable to Mexico in 1873, and things there were in rather a primitive

condition. Of course, I never anticipated pursuit beyond New York, and

took it for granted that my friends at Police Headquarters would squelch

it there. But once in Mexico there would have been no danger for me. To

be in Mexico was like being in the centre of darkest Africa. There was

no extradition treaty, no railroads and no telegraph; above all, I had

plenty of cash.

I intended to buy an estate near the capital, and settle down for two

or three years, and by a liberal expenditure of money secure the

friendship of the government officials and the chief people of the

country. Official and social morals being not of the best, if my history

transpired I would probably become the lion of society, as they would

all esteem it a creditable thing to any man to secure a few millions

from the English, whose enormous wealth is the plunder of India and all

the world for centuries.

The next morning I found we were sailing along the Cuban coast, quite

near the land, which looked so inviting that I made up my mind to go

ashore and stay a month in Havana, so I had my baggage got on deck. Soon

after dinner the engines were stopped for some hours for repacking, the

captain informing me that it was doubtful whether we should arrive in

Havana in time to go ashore that night. At 6 o'clock the sunset gun is

fired, the custom house closes and no more debarkations are allowed that

day. If I went ashore the next day I must be up and off at an early

hour, as the ship sailed at 7.30, so I told the captain if he arrived

before 6 o'clock I would go ashore and wait for the next steamer, but if

we were late I would go on to Vera Cruz with him.

Once having made up my mind to go ashore, I was all eagerness to push

matters. To do so I even asked the captain to tell the engineer to force

the engines a little if possible. It was well on to 6 o'clock when we

steamed past Moro Castle and dropped anchor in the harbor. I engaged two

of the boats alongside, our baggage was hurried into them, my wife went

down the ladder, and speaking some hurried farewells I ran down after

her and sprang lightly into the boat. That instant the sunset gun was

fired. Two minutes later and the custom house officers on board would

have forbidden my leaving the steamer. I say two minutes, but it was

less than half a minute. Half a minute! Thirty seconds changed my

destiny.