CHAPTER VIII

CONCERNING THE BROTHERHOOD FOUNDED BY RICHARD CALMADY, AND OTHER

MATTERS OF SOME INTEREST

It was still very sultry. All the windows of the red drawing-room

stood wide open. Outside the thunder rain fell, straight as ramrods,

in big globular drops, which spattered upon the gray quarries and

splashed on the pink and lilac, lemon-yellow, scarlet and orange

of the pot plants,--hydrangeas, pelargoniums, and early-flowering

chrysanthemums,--set, three deep, along the base of the house wall, the

whole length of the terrace front. The atmosphere was thick. Masses of

purple cloud, lurid light crowning their summits, boiled up out of the

southeast. But the worst of the storm was already over, and the parched

land, grateful for the downpour of rain, exhaled a whiteness of

smoke--as in thanksgiving from off some altar of incense. On the grass

slopes of the near park a flight of rooks had alighted. They stalked

and strode over the withered turf with a self-important, quaintly

clerical air, seeking provender, but, so far, finding none, since the

moisture had not yet sufficiently penetrated the hardened soil for

earth-worms and kindred creeping-things to move surfacewards.

Within, the red drawing-room had suffered conspicuous change. For, on

Richard moving down-stairs to his old quarters in the southwestern wing

of the house, Lady Calmady had judged it an act of love, rather than of

desecration, to restore this long-disused apartment to its former

employment. Adjoining the dining-room,--connecting this last with the

billiard-room, summer-parlour, and garden-hall,--this room was

convenient to assemble in before, and sit in for a while after, meals.

Richard would thereby be saved superfluous journeys up-stairs. And this

act of restitution, which was also in a sense an act of penitence, once

decided upon, Katherine carried it forward with a certain gentle

ardour, renewing crimson carpets and hangings and disposing the

furniture according to its long-ago positions. The memory of what had

once been should remain forever here enshrined, but with the glad

colours of life, not the faded ones of unforgiven death upon it. It

satisfied her conscience to do this. For it appeared to her that so

very much of good had been granted her of late, so large a measure of

peace and hope vouchsafed to her, that it was but fitting she should

bear testimony to her awareness of all that by obliteration of the last

outward sign of the rebellion of her sorrowful youth. The Richard of

to-day, homestaying, busy with much kindness, thoughtful of her

comfort, honouring her with delicate courtesies--which to whoso

receives them makes her womanhood a privilege rather than a burden--yet

teasing her not a little, too, in the security of a fair and equal

affection, bore such moving resemblance to that other Richard, first

master of her heart, that Katherine could afford to cancel the cruelty

of certain memories, retaining only the lovelier portion of them, and

could find a peculiar sweetness in frequentation of this room, formerly

devoted wholly to a sense of injury and blackness of hate.

And on the day in question, Katherine's presence exhaled a specially

tender brightness, even as the thirsty earth, refreshed by the thunder

rain, sent up a rare whiteness as of incense smoke. For she had been

somewhat anxious about Dickie lately. To her sensitive observation of

him, his virtue, his evenness of temper, his reasonableness, had come

to have in them a pathetic element. He was lovely and pleasant in his

ways. But sometimes, when tired or off his guard, she had surprised an

expression on his face, a constrained patience of speech, even of

attitude, which made her fear he had given her but that half of his

confidence calculated to cheer, while he kept the half calculated to

sadden rather rigorously to himself. And, in good truth, Richard did

suffer somewhat at this period. The first push of enthusiastic

conviction had passed, while his new manner of conduct and of thought

had not yet acquired the stability of habit. The tide was low. Shallows

and sand-bars disclosed themselves. He endured the temptations arising

from the state known to saintly writers as "spiritual dryness," and

found those temptations of an inglorious and wholly unheroic sort. And,

though he held his peace, Katherine feared for him--feared that the way

he elected to walk in was over-strait, and that, though resolution

would hold, health might be overstrained.

"My darling, you never grumble now," she had said to him a few days

back.

To which he answered:--

"Poor, dear mother, have I cheated you of one of your few, small

pleasures? Was it so very delightful to listen to that same grumbling?"

"I begin to believe it was," Katherine declared. "It conferred a unique

distinction upon me, you see, because I had a comfortable conviction

you grumbled to nobody else. One is jealous of distinction. Yes--I

think I miss it, Dickie."

Whereupon he laughed and kissed her, and swore he'd grumble fast enough

if there was anything--which positively there wasn't--to grumble about.

All of which, though it charmed Katherine, appeased her anxiety but

moderately. The young man worked too hard. His opportunities of

amusement were too scant. Katherine cast about in thought, and in

prayer, for some lightening of his daily life, even if such lightening

should lessen the completeness of his dependence upon herself. And it

was just at this juncture that Miss St. Quentin wrote proposing to come

to Brockhurst for a week. She had not been there since the Whitsuntide

recess. She wrote from Ormiston, where she was staying on her way

south, after paying a round of country-house visits in Scotland. It was

now late September. She would probably go to Cairo for the winter with

young Lady Tobermory--grandniece by marriage of her late godmother and

benefactress--whose lungs were pronounced to be badly touched. Might

she, therefore, come to Brockhurst to say good-bye?

And to this proposed visit Richard offered no opposition, though he

received the announcement of it without any marked demonstration of

pleasure.--Oh, by all means let her come! Of course it must be a

pleasure to his mother to have her. And he'd got on very well with her

in the spring--unquestionably he had.--Richard's expression was

slightly ironical.--But he did really like her?--Oh dear, yes, he liked

her exceedingly. She was quite curiously clever, and she was sincere,

and she was rather beautiful too, in her own style--he had always

thought that. By all means have her.--After which conversation Richard

went for a long ride, inspected cottages in building at Sandyfield,

visited a house, undergoing extensive, internal alterations, which

stands back from Clerke's Green, about a hundred yards short of

Appleyard, the saddler's shop at Farley Row. He came in late. Unusual

silence held him during dinner. And Lady Calmady took herself to task,

reproaching herself with selfishness. Honoria was very dear to her, and

so, only too probably, she had overrated the friendliness of Dickie's

attitude towards the young lady. But they had seemed to get on so

extremely well in the spring, and very fairly well at Whitsuntide! Yet,

perhaps, in that, as in so much else, Richard put a constraint upon

himself, obeying conscience rather than inclination. Katherine was

perturbed. Nor had her perturbations suffered diminution yesterday,

upon Miss St. Quentin's arrival. Richard remained unexpansive. To-day,

however, matters had improved. Something--possibly the thunderstorm--seemed

to have thawed his coldness, broken up his reticence of manner. Therefore

Katherine gave thanks and moved with a lighter heart.

As for Miss St. Quentin herself, an innate gladsomeness pervaded her

aspect not easy to resist. Lady Calmady had been sensible of it when

the young lady first greeted her that morning. It remained by her now,

as she stood after luncheon at one of the open windows, watching the

up-rolling thunder-cloud, the spattering raindrops, the quaintly solemn

behaviour of the stalking, striding rooks. Honoria was easily

entertained to-day. She felt well-disposed towards every living

creature. And the rooks diverted her extremely. Profanely they reminded

her of certain archiepiscopal garden-parties, with this improvement on

the human variant, that here wives and daughters also were condemned to

decent sables instead of being at liberty to array themselves according

to self-invented canons of remarkably defective taste. But, though

diverted, it must be owned she gave her attention the more closely to

all that outward drama of storm and rain and to the antics of the

rooks, because she was very conscious of the fact that Richard Calmady

had followed her and his mother into the red drawing-room, and it hurt

her--though she had now, of necessity, witnessed it many times--it

hurt, it still very shrewdly distressed her, to see him walk. As she

heard the soft thud and shuffle of his onward progress, followed by the

little clatter of the crutches as he laid them upon the floor beside

his chair, the brightness died out of Honoria's face. She registered

sharp annoyance against herself, for she had not anticipated that this

would continue to affect her so much. She supposed she had grown

accustomed to it during her last two visits to Brockhurst, and that,

this time, it would occasion her no shock. But the sadness of the young

man's deformity remained present as ever. The indignity of it offended

her. The desire by some, by any, means to mitigate the woeful

circumscription of liberty and opportunity which it inflicted, wrought

upon her almost painfully. And so she looked very hard at the hungry

anticking rooks, both to secure time for recovery of her equanimity,

and also to spare Richard smallest suspicion that she avoided beholding

his advance and installation.

"We needn't start until four, mother," she heard him say. "But I'm

afraid it is clearing."

Honoria turned from the window.

"Yes, it is clearing," she remarked, "incontestably clearing! You won't

escape the Grimshott function after all."

"It's a nuisance having to go," Richard replied. "But you see this is

an old engagement. People are wonderfully civil and kind. I wish they

were less so. They waste one's time. But it doesn't do to be

ungracious, and we needn't stay more than half an hour, need we,

mother?"

He looked up at Honoria.

"Don't you think, on the whole, you'd better come too?" he said.

But the young lady shook her head smilingly. She stood close beside

Lady Calmady.

"Oh dear, no," she answered. "I am quite absolutely certain I hadn't

better come too."

Richard continued to look up at her.

"Half the county will be there. Everything will be richly,

comprehensively dull. Think of it. Do come," he repeated, "it would be

so good for your soul."

"Oh, my soul's in the humour to be nobly careless of personal

advantage," Honoria replied. "It's in a state of almost perilously

full-blown optimism regarding the security of its own salvation to-day,

somehow."--Her glance rested very sweetly upon Lady Calmady.--"And then

all the rest of me--and not impossibly my soul has a word to say in

that connection too--cries out to go and tramp over the steaming turf

and breathe the scent of the fir woods again."

Honoria sat down lazily on the arm of a neighbouring easy-chair,

against the crimson cover of which her striped blue-and-white, shirting

dress showed excellently distinct and clear. Richard's prolonged and

quiet scrutiny oppressed her slightly, necessitating change of attitude

and place.

"And then," she continued, "I want to go down to the paddocks and have

a look at the yearlings. How are they coming on? Have you anything

good?"

"Two or three promising fillies. They're in the paddock nearest the

Long Water. You'll find them as quiet as sheep. But I'll ask you not to

go in among the brood-mares and foals unless Chifney is with you. They

may be a bit savage and shy, and it is not altogether safe for a lady."

He stretched out his hand, taking Lady Calmady's hand for a moment.

"Dear mother, you look tired. You'll have to put up with Grimshott. The

weather's not going to let us off. Go and rest till we start."

And when, a few minutes later, Katharine, departing, closed the door

behind her, he addressed Miss St. Quentin again.

"How do you think my mother is?"

"Beautifully well."

"Not worried?"

"No," Honoria said.

"You are really quite contented about her, then?"

The question both surprised and touched his hearer as a friendly and

gracious admission that she possessed certain rights.

"Oh dear, yes," she said. "I am more than contented about her. No one

can fail to be so who, loving her, sees her now. There was just one

thing she wanted. Now she has it, and so all is well."

"What one thing?" Dickie asked, with a hint of irony in his manner and

his voice.

"Why, you--you, Richard," Honoria said.

She drew herself up proudly, a little alarmed by, a little defiant of,

the directness of her own speech, perceiving, so soon as she had

uttered it, that it might be construed as indirect reproach. And to

administer reproach had been very far from her purpose. She fixed her

eyes upon the domes of the great oaks, crowning an outstanding knoll at

the far end of the lime avenue. The foliage of them, deep green shading

to russet, was arrestingly solid and metallic, offering a rather

magnificent scheme of stormy colour taken in connection with the hot

purple of the uprolling cloud. Framed by the stone work of the open

window, the whole presented a fine picture in the manner of Salvator

Rosa. A few, bright raindrops splashed and splattered, and the thunder

growled far away in the north. The atmosphere was heavy. For a time

neither spoke. Then Honoria said, gently, as one asking a favour:--

"Richard, will you tell me about that home of yours? Cousin Katherine

was speaking of it to me last night."

And it seemed to her his thought must have journeyed to some far

distance, and found difficulty in returning thence, it was so long

before he answered her, while his face had become set, and showed

colourless as wax against the surrounding crimson of the room.

"Oh, the home!" he exclaimed, shrugging his shoulders just perceptibly.

"It doesn't amount to very much. My mother in her dear unwisdom of

faith and hope magnifies the value of it. It's just an idle man's fad."

"A fad with an uncommon amount of backbone to it, apparently."

"That depends on its eventual success. It's a thing to be judged not by

intentions but by results."

"What made you think of it?"

Richard looked full at her, spreading out his hands, and again

shrugging his shoulders, slightly. Again Miss St. Quentin accused

herself of a defect of tact.

"Isn't it rather obvious why I should think of it?" he asked. "It

seemed to me that, in a very mild and limited degree, it was calculated

to meet a want."--He smiled upon her, quite sweet-temperedly, yet once

more there was a flavour of irony in his tone.--"Of course hideous

creatures and disabled creatures are an eyesore. We pity, but we look

the other way. I quite accept that. They are a nuisance, since they are

a standing witness to the fact that things, here below, very far from

always work smoothly and well, and that there are disasters beyond the

power of applied science to put right. The ordinary human being doesn't

covet to be forcibly reminded of that by means of a living object

lesson."

Richard shifted his position, clasped his hands behind his head. He had

begun speaking without idea of self-revelation, but the relief of

speech, after long self-repression, took him, goading him on. Old

strains of feeling, kept under by conscious exercise of will, asserted

themselves. He asked neither sympathy nor help. He simply called from

off those shallows and sand-bars laid bare by the ebbing tide of his

first enthusiasm. He protested, wearied by the spiritual dryness which

had caused all effort to prove so joyless of late. To have sought

relief in words before his mother would have been unpardonable, he

held. She had borne enough from him in the past, and more than enough.

But to permit it himself in the presence of this young, strong, capable

woman of the world, was very different. She came out of the swing of

society and of affairs, of large interests in politics and in thought.

She would go back into those again very shortly, so what did it matter?

She captivated him and incensed him alike. His relation to her had been

so fertile of contradictions--at once singularly superficial and

fugitive, and singularly vital. He did not care to analyse his own

feelings in respect of her. He had, so he told himself, never quite

cared to do that. She had wounded his pride shrewdly at times, still he

had unquestioning faith in her power of comprehending his meaning as

she sat there, graceful, long-limbed, indolent, in her pale dress,

looking towards the window, the light on her face revealing the fine

squareness of the chiselling of her profile, of her jaw, her nostril,

and brow. She appeared so free of spirit, so untrammeled, so

excellently exalted above all that is weak, craven, smirched by

impurity, capable of baseness and deceit!

"But naturally with me the case is different," he went on, his voice

growing deeper, his utterance more measured. "It is futile to resent

being reminded of that which, in point of fact, you never forget. It's

childish for the pot to call the kettle black. And so I came to the

conclusion, a few months ago, to put away all such childishness, and

set myself to gain whatever advantage I could from--well--from my own

blackness."

Honoria turned her head, averting her face yet further. Richard could

only see the outline of her cheek. She had never before heard him make

so direct allusion to his own deformity, and it frightened her a

little. Her heart beat curiously quick. For it was to her as though he

compelled her to draw near and penetrate a region in which, gazing

thitherward questioningly from afar, she had divined the residence of

stern and intimate miseries, inalienable, unremittent, taking their

rise in an almost alarming distance of time and fundamentally of cause.

"You see, in plain English," he said, "I look at all such unhappy

beings from the inside, not, as the rest of you do, merely from the

out. I belong to them and they to me. It is not an altogether

flattering connection. Only recently, I am afraid, have I had the

honesty to acknowledge it! But, having once done so, it seems only

reasonable to look up the members of my unlucky family and take care of

them, and if possible put them through--not on the lines of a

charitable institution, which must inevitably be a rather mechanical,

stepmother kind of arrangement at best, but on the lines of family

affection, of personal friendship."

He paused a moment.

"Does that strike you as too unpractical and fantastic, contrary to

sound, philanthropic principle and practice?"

Honoria shook her head.

"It is based on a higher law than any of modern organised

philanthropy," she said, and her voice had a queer unsteadiness in it.

"It goes back to the Gospels--to the matter of giving your life for

your friend."

As she spoke, Honoria rose. She went across and stood at the window.

Furtively she dabbed her pocket handkerchief against her eyes.

"Well, after all, one must give one's life for something or other, you

know," Dickie remarked, "or the days would become a little too

intolerably dull, and then one might be tempted to make short work of

life altogether."

Honoria returned to her chair and sat down--this time not on the arm of

it but in ordinary conventional fashion. She faced Richard. He observed

that her eyelids were slightly swollen, slightly red. This gave an

extraordinary effect of gentleness to her expression.

"How do you find them--the members of your sad family?" she asked.

"Oh, in all sorts of ways and of places! Knott swears it is contrary to

reason, an interfering with the beneficent tendency of nature to kill

off the unfit. Yet he works like a horse to help me--even talks of

giving up his practice and moving to Farley Row, so as to be near the

headquarters of my establishment. The lease of a rather charming, old

house there fell in this year. Fortunately the tenant did not want to

renew, so I am having that made comfortable for them."

Richard smiled. A greater sense of well-being animated him. Out of the

world she had come, back into the world she would go again. Meanwhile

she was nobly fair to look upon, she was pure of heart, intercourse

with her made for the justification of high purposes and unselfish

experiment--so he thought.

"I am growing as keen on bagging a fine cripple as another man might on

bagging a fine tiger," he said. "The whole matter at bottom, I suspect,

turns on the instinct of sport.--Only the week before last I acquired a

rather terribly superior specimen. A lad of eighteen, a factory hand in

Westchurch. He was caught by some loose gearing and swept into the

machinery. What is left of him--if it survives, which it had much

better not, and I can't help hoping it will, he is such a plucky,

sweet-natured fellow--will require a nurse for the rest of its life. So

I am pushing on the work at Farley, that the home may be ready when we

get him out of hospital.--By the way, I must go to-morrow and stir up

the workmen. Do you care to come and see it all, if the afternoon is

fine and not too hot?"

And Honoria agreed. Nor did she shrink when Richard slipping out of his

chair picked up his crutches.--"I suppose it is about time to get ready

for the Grimshott function," he said.--She walked beside him to the

door, opened it and passed into the neutral-tinted, tapestry-hung

dining-room. There the young man waited a moment. He looked not at her

but straight before him.

"Honoria," he said suddenly, almost harshly, "you and Helen de

Vallorbes used to be great friends. For more than a year I have held no

communication with her, except through my lawyers. Can you tell me

anything about her?"

Miss St. Quentin hesitated.

"Nothing very direct--I heard from de Vallorbes about three months ago.

I don't think I am faithless--indeed I held on to her as long as I

could, Richard! I am not squeamish, and then I always prefer to stand

by the woman. But whatever de Vallorbes may have been, he pulled

himself together rather admirably from the time he went into the army.

He wanted to keep straight and to live respectably. And--I hate to say

so--but she treated him a little too flagrantly. And then--and

then----"

Honoria put her hands over her eyes and shook back her head angrily.

"It wasn't one man, Richard."

Dickie went white to the lips.

"I know that," he said.

He moved forward a few steps.

"Who is it now? Destournelle?"

"Oh no--no"--Honoria said. "Some Russian--from the extreme east--Kazan,

I think--prince, millionaire, drunken savage. But he adores her. He

squanders money upon her, surrounds her with barbaric state. This is de

Vallorbes' version of the affair. The scandal is open and notorious.

But she and her prince together have great power. Something will

eventually be arranged in the way of a marriage. She will not come

back."