CHAPTER LIX

In the exceeding industry of the days following the death of Ambassador

Tait, Captain Forbes found no chance to see Mrs. Enslee. Their meeting

would have been perilous. The Ambassador had received his death-stroke

in their presence.

Physicians, police, reporters, all demanded minute descriptions of the

event, and from the first Forbes blurred the account so that Persis

should not be drawn into it. He emphasized the strenuous diplomatic

labors of the last week and the final afternoon. He italicized the

presence of Mr. Enslee at the moment of death, which came, he said,

without immediate explanation. He described how the Ambassador's father

had died--just died while pulling on his overshoes.

He lied about the last words of the Ambassador in spirit at least, for

it was sadly incomplete truth to say that the Ambassador, after

discussing trivial matters, had said, "Mr. Enslee, I must tell you good

night," and fallen to the floor.

Yet the account was not questioned. Enslee was too befuddled to know or,

when the shock sobered him, to remember. Persis could be trusted to keep

silent. In fact, she retired from view "prostrated with the shock." It

was explained that the Ambassador had been a classmate of her father's,

an old friend of the family's.

The story was telegraphed and cabled about the world. As usual, every

newspaper published a minutely circumstantial account with a pretendedly

_verbatim_ statement of the last words, and, as usual, the accounts were

as discrepant mutually as they were commonly remote from the truth.

* * * * *

The idea that the Ambassador's death might be concerned with an intrigue

between Mrs. Enslee and Captain Forbes occurred perhaps only to one mind

on earth, and that the too-sophisticated brain of a reporter in New

York, a brindle-haired man with half of one eyebrow gone. He could not

confirm his suspicion even enough for publication, so he hid it in the

cellar of his soul, alongside the memory of seeing Persis Cabot walk out

of a lonely forest with a man he afterward learned to be Forbes.

When this reporter--Hallard, his name was--was comfortably drunk he

would discuss New York society's rotten state of morals, usually with a

horrified barkeeper, forgetting his own morals and that of his class and

of the other classes low and middle that he knew well enough. He would

add: "There's lovely li'l lady growin' a peach of a scan'al--um-m, a

pippin!--swee' li'l dynamite bomb. Story's going to break some day, and

I'm lovely li'l feller's goin' to break it."

But he would not tell the name. He was holding that in trust for

whatever newspaper should be employing his fanatic loyalty at the time

of the break. And he was waiting, listening, following.

* * * * *

Persis had been soft-hearted enough to feel the pity of the Ambassador's

death. She had wept a little for her stricken enemy, and she suffered

some acute stabs of repentance as the instrument of his assassination.

But regret was mingled with the lilt of victory and successful

evasion--even with blasphemous prayers of gratitude to the Lord for

saving her from exposure in the matter. She had fallen on her knees to

pour out this thanksgiving, and piously or impiously promised her Lord

not to be indiscreet again.

One's god is apt to be one's ideal servant magnified. As the daughters

of joy in old Florence used to keep a votive Mary in their rooms and

pray to it for success in their offices, so Persis whispered to her

heaven words of praise and gratitude for aid in escaping the

consequences of her mad whim to nestle in Forbes' arms.

She went to the Ambassador's funeral, partly as a tribute of awesome

esteem, partly as good sportsmanship toward a beaten adversary, and

chiefly because it would have been conspicuous to stay away when almost

every other American in Paris was sure to be there. She compelled Willie

to go along, an unwilling and unwitting chaperon.

She saw Forbes in the church, but at a distance, and noted with a gush

of pity how haggard and lonely he seemed. She hoped that not all of his

grief was for his dead friend. She longed to go to him with comfort, but

she ventured only a nod from afar and one of her slow, sweet, tender

smiles.

Forbes had been kept intensely active at the Embassy, where the Consul

took over the interrupted duties of the Ambassador's office, but left to

Forbes the personal details of the funeral ceremony, the closing up of

the house, and the arrangements for getting Mildred back to New York.

The Ambassador's body was to be taken home to America on board a

war-ship proffered by the French Republic.

For three days Forbes was too grimly busy and too grief-stricken to feel

more than a longing to see Persis; an impossible desire without impulse

to achieve it.

Mildred was, for once, demanding help instead of giving it. The loss of

her father was a devastation in her soul. She clung to Forbes as to a

brother. Had Persis seen her in his arms she might have felt a jealousy;

but not if she could have seen Forbes' heart. That was filled only with

a sense of shame. He felt that in denying Mildred his love he had robbed

the old man of his last great wish. At times he reproached himself with

the very murder of his best friend, the murder of a great statesman,

the noble father of a noble woman. And the motive of the assassination

was his obstinate devotion to another man's wife!

People have a genius for remorse as for other emotions, and Forbes was

of those who can mercilessly indict their own souls. Storms of

self-condemnation were succeeded by storms of longing. About him hovered

the tantalizing beckoning vision of Persis. He was mad to see her. He

kept alternately vowing that he would not go near her and wondering when

he should.

At first he dared not make an effort to see her, because he feared to

involve her and because he had not a moment he could call his own. He

was burdened with tasks of every sort, and in and out of his office he

was beset with correspondents like sparrows demanding crumbs of news to

cable to America. He had no leisure of his own except the black hours

when he sank into his bed.

He would trudge to his room so exhausted, so drowsy, that he could

hardly get his clothes off. The moment he lay down he was the prey to a

swarm of black emotions that swooped about him like bats in a cave,

swooped and shot and chittered, swept him with their vile wings and

fastened their claws in his hair. He reproached himself with every

wickedness and worthlessness from hideous ingratitude to murder and

adultery that dared not take what it lusted for.

Sleepless nights and restless days wore him out until the funeral, an

affair of great pomp and enormous impressiveness. When he saw Persis in

the church her beauty was overwhelming in the black costume she wore

under the shadow of a black hat.

Somehow, after the funeral ceremony, the prayers, and the long ritual,

with which the church formally restored the soul to the heaven from

which it emigrated and the body to the earth of which it was made, there

came a great relief to Forbes--the restful word "Finis."

That night he dined with Mildred. She, too, felt the relaxation of a

burden removed. She almost collapsed into sleep at the table, and her

maid supported her to her room. She had wept herself out.

Forbes envied her nothing but her fluency in weeping. He carried about

with him the ache of the tears a man feels but cannot release, the

unshed tears that scratch the eyes like blown grit. He longed to be a

boy again and cry his heart out as he had cried when his father was

brought home dead. He longed to weep stormily as he had wept when the

boy he was had been denied some luxury he greatly desired--honey, or a

staying home from school, or some wild animal for a pet.

The thought of Persis came to him now with the charm of all

three--honey, truancy to duty, and danger. He lifted the telephone from

the rack to ask her permission to call. He put it down again, his heart

beating as if he had touched a snake. He went out into the air.

It was a typical, sharp, wet winter night in Paris, the chill going with

a peculiar directness straight to the marrow of the bones and freezing

the body from within outward. Forbes had buffeted blizzards and the

still, grim, icy airs of Dakota when the mercury seemed to crowd into

the bulb of the thermometer to keep warm. But he wondered if he had ever

been so cold in his life as he was now, when the thermometer had not

reached even the zero of the French centigrade.

Paris was not Paris. The sidewalks were not peopled with tables, and the

restaurants were deserted within. There were few people abroad, for the

audiences were at this hour in the theaters and the home-keepers were at

home. Nobody loitered in the streets but a few miserables, and they were

wretchedly cold.

Forbes was so desperately lonely that he resolved to call upon Persis,

even if he had to talk to her husband. He walked to the Meurice, but

dared not turn in; he went on by. Later he was back again. Three times

his courage--or his cowardice--failed him. The last time he stopped

short as if he heard a sudden "Halt!"

Willie Enslee was just stepping into a car with two other men, violently

American and manifestly bent on finding in Paris what Paris manufactures

for American visitors.

Willie paused and cast his eyes along the street idly while he waited

for the other two to precede him. Forbes stepped behind a shelter till

Willie vanished.

Forbes, the brave, the upright, found himself dodging to escape Willie's

fishy eyes, found himself chuckling over Willie's blindness. Then he

cursed himself for a reptile. He turned away from the hotel and started

back to his apartment, groaning to himself, "The woman doesn't live that

can make a sneak of me."