CHAPTER XL.

MOLLY GIBSON BREATHES FREELY.

That was the way in which Mrs. Gibson first broached her intention

of accompanying Cynthia up to London for a few days' visit. She had

a trick of producing the first sketch of any new plan before an

outsider to the family circle; so that the first emotions of others,

if they disapproved of her projects, had to be repressed, until the

idea had become familiar to them. To Molly it seemed too charming

a proposal ever to come to pass. She had never allowed herself to

recognize the restraint she was under in her stepmother's presence;

but all at once she found it out when her heart danced at the idea

of three whole days--for that it would be at the least--of perfect

freedom of intercourse with her father; of old times come back again;

of meals without perpetual fidgetiness after details of ceremony and

correctness of attendance.

"We'll have bread-and-cheese for dinner, and eat it on our knees;

we'll make up for having had to eat sloppy puddings with a fork

instead of a spoon all this time, by putting our knives in our mouths

till we cut ourselves. Papa shall pour his tea into his saucer if

he's in a hurry; and if I'm thirsty, I'll take the slop-basin. And

oh, if I could but get, buy, borrow, or steal any kind of an old

horse; my grey skirt isn't new, but it will do;--that would be too

delightful! After all, I think I can be happy again; for months and

months it has seemed as if I had got too old ever to feel pleasure,

much less happiness again."

So thought Molly. Yet she blushed, as if with guilt, when Cynthia,

reading her thoughts, said to her one day,--

"Molly, you're very glad to get rid of us, are not you?"

"Not of you, Cynthia; at least, I don't think I am. Only, if you but

knew how I love papa, and how I used to see a great deal more of him

than I ever do now--"

"Ah! I often think what interlopers we must seem, and are in fact--"

"I don't feel you as such. You, at any rate, have been a new delight

to me--a sister; and I never knew how charming such a relationship

could be."

"But mamma?" said Cynthia, half-suspiciously, half-sorrowfully.

"She is papa's wife," said Molly, quietly. "I don't mean to say I'm

not often very sorry to feel I'm no longer first with him; but it

was"--the violent colour flushed into her face till even her eyes

burnt, and she suddenly found herself on the point of crying; the

weeping ash-tree, the misery, the slow dropping comfort, and the

comforter came all so vividly before her--"it was Roger!"--she went

on looking up at Cynthia, as she overcame her slight hesitation at

mentioning his name--"Roger, who told me how I ought to take papa's

marriage, when I was first startled and grieved at the news. Oh,

Cynthia, what a great thing it is to be loved by him!"

Cynthia blushed, and looked fluttered and pleased.

"Yes, I suppose it is. At the same time, Molly, I'm afraid he'll

expect me to be always as good as he fancies me now, and I shall have

to walk on tiptoe all the rest of my life."

"But you are good, Cynthia," put in Molly.

"No, I'm not. You're just as much mistaken as he is; and some day I

shall go down in your opinions with a run, just like the hall clock

the other day when the spring broke."

"I think he'll love you just as much," said Molly.

"Could you? Would you be my friend if--if it turned out ever that I

had done very wrong things? Would you remember how very difficult it

has sometimes been to me to act rightly?" (she took hold of Molly's

hand as she spoke). "We won't speak of mamma, for your sake as much

as mine or hers; but you must see she isn't one to help a girl with

much good advice, or good-- Oh, Molly, you don't know how I was

neglected just at a time when I wanted friends most. Mamma does not

know it; it is not in her to know what I might have been if I had

only fallen into wise, good hands. But I know it; and what's more,"

continued she, suddenly ashamed of her unusual exhibition of feeling,

"I try not to care, which I daresay is really the worst of all; but I

could worry myself to death if I once took to serious thinking."

"I wish I could help you, or even understand you," said Molly, after

a moment or two of sad perplexity.

"You can help me," said Cynthia, changing her manner abruptly. "I can

trim bonnets, and make head-dresses; but somehow my hands can't fold

up gowns and collars, like your deft little fingers. Please will

you help me to pack? That's a real, tangible piece of kindness, and

not sentimental consolation for sentimental distresses, which are,

perhaps, imaginary after all."

In general, it is the people that are left behind stationary, who

give way to low spirits at any parting; the travellers, however

bitterly they may feel the separation, find something in the change

of scene to soften regret in the very first hour of separation. But

as Molly walked home with her father from seeing Mrs. Gibson and

Cynthia off to London by the "Umpire" coach, she almost danced along

the street.

"Now, papa!" said she, "I'm going to have you all to myself for a

whole week. You must be very obedient."

"Don't be tyrannical, then. You're walking me out of breath, and

we're cutting Mrs. Goodenough, in our hurry."

So they crossed over the street to speak to Mrs. Goodenough.

"We've just been seeing my wife and her daughter off to London. Mrs.

Gibson has gone up for a week!"

"Deary, deary, to London, and only for a week! Why, I can remember

its being a three days' journey! It'll be very lonesome for you, Miss

Molly, without your young companion!"

"Yes!" said Molly, suddenly feeling as if she ought to have taken

this view of the case. "I shall miss Cynthia very much."

"And you, Mr. Gibson; why, it'll be like being a widower over again!

You must come and drink tea with me some evening. We must try and

cheer you up a bit amongst us. Shall it be Tuesday?"

In spite of the sharp pinch which Molly gave to his arm, Mr. Gibson

accepted the invitation, much to the gratification of the old lady.

"Papa, how could you go and waste one of our evenings! We have but

six in all, and now but five; and I had so reckoned on our doing all

sorts of things together."

"What sort of things?"

"Oh, I don't know: everything that is unrefined and ungenteel," added

she, slily looking up into her father's face.

His eyes twinkled, but the rest of his face was perfectly grave. "I'm

not going to be corrupted. With toil and labour I've reached a very

fair height of refinement. I won't be pulled down again."

"Yes, you will, papa. We'll have bread-and-cheese for lunch this

very day. And you shall wear your slippers in the drawing-room every

evening you'll stay quietly at home; and oh, papa, don't you think I

could ride Nora Creina? I've been looking out the old grey skirt, and

I think I could make myself tidy."

"Where is the side-saddle to come from?"

"To be sure, the old one won't fit that great Irish mare. But I'm not

particular, papa. I think I could manage somehow."

"Thank you. But I'm not quite going to return into barbarism. It may

be a depraved taste, but I should like to see my daughter properly

mounted."

"Think of riding together down the lanes--why, the dog-roses must be

all out in flower, and the honeysuckles, and the hay--how I should

like to see Merriman's farm again! Papa, do let me have one ride with

you! Please do. I'm sure we can manage it somehow."

And "somehow" it was managed. "Somehow" all Molly's wishes came to

pass; there was only one little drawback to this week of holiday and

happy intercourse with her father. Everybody would ask them out to

tea. They were quite like bride and bridegroom; for the fact was,

that the late dinners which Mrs. Gibson had introduced into her own

house, were a great inconvenience in the calculations of the small

tea-drinkings at Hollingford. How ask people to tea at six, who dined

at that hour? How, when they refused cake and sandwiches at half-past

eight, how induce other people who were really hungry to commit a

vulgarity before those calm and scornful eyes? So there had been a

great lull of invitations for the Gibsons to Hollingford tea-parties.

Mrs. Gibson, whose object was to squeeze herself into "county

society," had taken this being left out of the smaller festivities

with great equanimity; but Molly missed the kind homeliness of the

parties to which she had gone from time to time as long as she could

remember; and though, as each three-cornered note was brought in,

she grumbled a little over the loss of another charming evening

with her father, she really was glad to go again in the old way

among old friends. Miss Browning and Miss Phoebe were especially

compassionate towards her in her loneliness. If they had had their

will she would have dined there every day; and she had to call upon

them very frequently in order to prevent their being hurt at her

declining the dinners. Mrs. Gibson wrote twice during her week's

absence to her husband. That piece of news was quite satisfactory

to the Miss Brownings, who had of late held themselves a great deal

aloof from a house where they chose to suppose that their presence

was not wanted. In their winter evenings they had often talked over

Mr. Gibson's household, and having little besides conjecture to go

upon, they found the subject interminable, as they could vary the

possibilities every day. One of their wonders was how Mr. and Mrs.

Gibson really got on together; another was whether Mrs. Gibson was

extravagant or not. Now two letters during the week of her absence

showed what was in those days considered a very proper amount of

conjugal affection. Yet not too much--at elevenpence-halfpenny

postage. A third letter would have been extravagant. Sister looked to

sister with an approving nod as Molly named the second letter, which

arrived in Hollingford the very day before Mrs. Gibson was to return.

They had settled between themselves that two letters would show the

right amount of good feeling and proper understanding in the Gibson

family: more would have been extravagant; only one would have been

a mere matter of duty. There had been rather a question between

Miss Browning and Miss Phoebe as to which person the second letter

(supposing it came) was to be addressed to. It would be very conjugal

to write twice to Mr. Gibson; and yet it would be very pretty if

Molly came in for her share.

"You've had another letter, you say, my dear?" asked Miss Browning.

"I daresay Mrs. Gibson has written to you this time?"

"It is a large sheet, and Cynthia has written on one half to me, and

all the rest is to papa."

"A very nice arrangement, I'm sure. And what does Cynthia say? Is she

enjoying herself?"

"Oh, yes, I think so. They've had a dinner-party; and one night,

when mamma was at Lady Cumnor's, Cynthia went to the play with her

cousins."

"Upon my word! and all in one week? I do call that dissipation. Why,

Thursday would be taken up with the journey, and Friday with resting,

and Sunday is Sunday all the world over; and they must have written

on Tuesday. Well! I hope Cynthia won't find Hollingford dull, that's

all, when she comes back."

"I don't think it's likely," said Miss Phoebe, with a little simper

and a knowing look, which sate oddly on her kindly innocent face.

"You see a great deal of Mr. Preston, don't you, Molly?"

"Mr. Preston!" said Molly, flushing up with surprise. "No! not much.

He's been at Ashcombe all winter, you know! He has but just come back

to settle here. What should make you think so?"

"Oh! a little bird told us," said Miss Browning. Molly knew that

little bird from her childhood, and had always hated it, and longed

to wring its neck. Why could not people speak out and say that they

did not mean to give up the name of their informant? But it was a

very favourite form of fiction with the Miss Brownings, and to Miss

Phoebe it was the very acme of wit.

"The little bird was flying about one day in Heath Lane, and it saw

Mr. Preston and a young lady--we won't say who--walking together in

a very friendly manner, that is to say, he was on horseback; but the

path is raised above the road, just where there is the little wooden

bridge over the brook--"

"Perhaps Molly is in the secret, and we ought not to ask her about

it," said Miss Phoebe, seeing Molly's extreme discomfiture and

annoyance.

"It can be no great secret," said Miss Browning, dropping the

little-bird formula, and assuming an air of dignified reproval at

Miss Phoebe's interruption, "for Miss Hornblower says Mr. Preston

owns to being engaged--"

"At any rate it isn't to Cynthia, that I know positively," said Molly

with some vehemence. "And pray put a stop to any such reports; you

don't know what mischief they may do. I do so hate that kind of

chatter!" It was not very respectful of Molly to speak in this way

to be sure, but she thought only of Roger; and the distress any such

reports might cause, should he ever hear of them (in the centre of

Africa!) made her colour up scarlet with vexation.

"Heighty-teighty! Miss Molly! don't you remember that I am old enough

to be your mother, and that it is not pretty behaviour to speak so to

us--to me! 'Chatter' to be sure. Really, Molly--"

"I beg your pardon," said Molly, only half-penitent.

"I daresay you did not mean to speak so to sister," said Miss

Phoebe, trying to make peace.

Molly did not answer all at once. She wanted to explain how much

mischief might be done by such reports.

"But don't you see," she went on, still flushed by vexation, "how

bad it is to talk of such things in such a way? Supposing one of

them cared for some one else, and that might happen, you know; Mr.

Preston, for instance, may be engaged to some one else?"

"Molly! I pity the woman! Indeed I do. I have a very poor opinion of

Mr. Preston," said Miss Browning, in a warning tone of voice; for a

new idea had come into her head.

"Well, but the woman, or young lady, would not like to hear such

reports about Mr. Preston."

"Perhaps not. But for all that, take my word for it, he's a great

flirt, and young ladies had better not have much to do with him."

"I daresay it was all accident their meeting in Heath Lane," said

Miss Phoebe.

"I know nothing about it," said Molly, "and I daresay I have been

impertinent, only please don't talk about it any more. I have my

reasons for asking you." She got up, for by the striking of the

church clock she had just found out that it was later than she had

thought, and she knew that her father would be at home by this time.

She bent down and kissed Miss Browning's grave and passive face.

"How you are growing, Molly!" said Miss Phoebe, anxious to cover

over her sister's displeasure. "'As tall and as straight as a

poplar-tree!' as the old song says."

"Grow in grace, Molly, as well as in good looks!" said Miss Browning,

watching her out of the room. As soon as she was fairly gone, Miss

Browning got up and shut the door quite securely, and then sitting

down near her sister, she said, in a low voice, "Phoebe, it was

Molly herself that was with Mr. Preston in Heath Lane that day when

Mrs. Goodenough saw them together!"

"Gracious goodness me!" exclaimed Miss Phoebe, receiving it at once

as gospel. "How do you know?"

"By putting two and two together. Didn't you notice how red Molly

went, and then pale, and how she said she knew for a fact that Mr.

Preston and Cynthia Kirkpatrick were not engaged?"

"Perhaps not engaged; but Mrs. Goodenough saw them loitering

together, all by their own two selves--"

"Mrs. Goodenough only crossed Heath Lane at the Shire Oak, as she was

riding in her phaeton," said Miss Browning sententiously. "We all

know what a coward she is in a carriage, so that most likely she had

only half her wits about her, and her eyes are none of the best when

she is standing steady on the ground. Molly and Cynthia have got

their new plaid shawls just alike, and they trim their bonnets alike,

and Molly is grown as tall as Cynthia since Christmas. I was always

afraid she'd be short and stumpy, but she's now as tall and slender

as anyone need be. I'll answer for it, Mrs. Goodenough saw Molly, and

took her for Cynthia."

When Miss Browning "answered for it" Miss Phoebe gave up doubting.

She sate some time in silence revolving her thoughts. Then she said:

"It wouldn't be such a very bad match after all, sister." She spoke

very meekly, awaiting her sister's sanction to her opinion.

"Phoebe, it would be a bad match for Mary Pearson's daughter. If

I had known what I know now we'd never have had him to tea last

September."

"Why, what do you know?" asked Miss Phoebe.

"Miss Hornblower told me many things; some that I don't think

you ought to hear, Phoebe. He was engaged to a very pretty Miss

Gregson, at Henwick, where he comes from; and her father made

inquiries, and heard so much that was bad about him that he made his

daughter break off the match, and she's dead since!"

"How shocking!" said Miss Phoebe, duly impressed.

"Besides, he plays at billiards, and he bets at races, and some

people do say he keeps race-horses."

"But isn't it strange that the earl keeps him on as his agent?"

"No! perhaps not. He's very clever about land, and very sharp in all

law affairs; and my lord isn't bound to take notice--if indeed he

knows--of the manner in which Mr. Preston talks when he has taken too

much wine."

"Taken too much wine! Oh, sister, is he a drunkard? and we have had

him to tea!"

"I didn't say he was a drunkard, Phoebe," said Miss Browning,

pettishly. "A man may take too much wine occasionally, without being

a drunkard. Don't let me hear you using such coarse words, Phoebe!"

Miss Phoebe was silent for a time after this rebuke.

Presently she said, "I do hope it wasn't Molly Gibson."

"You may hope as much as you like, but I'm pretty sure it was.

However, we'd better say nothing about it to Mrs. Goodenough; she has

got Cynthia into her head, and there let her rest. Time enough to set

reports afloat about Molly when we know there's some truth in them.

Mr. Preston might do for Cynthia, who's been brought up in France,

though she has such pretty manners; but it may have made her not

particular. He must not, and he shall not, have Molly, if I go into

church and forbid the banns myself; but I'm afraid--I'm afraid

there's something between her and him. We must keep on the look-out,

Phoebe. I'll be her guardian angel, in spite of herself."